There's a pain that hurts,
A pain that strangles;
a pain that kills
A pain that's more like a knife.
Into the last day of February! How has your month been? Mine was going steady until this week where things were shaken up a bit; faith was tested but trust and confidence in God surely heightened to new levels.
We're breathing the 4th day of 2018! This new year, I decided to pick out a song that I would hold on to this whole year. I picked 'Where I Belong' by Building 429 because of the clarity of its message. A lot of times, we fail to stand by the truth the Bible is teaching us. This very song resonates with my heart & thoughts right now. That no matter how much of the world is presented to me, I shouldn't at all be pulled to believe that this temporary place is what I should call my home. Bad or good things, I should firmly believe that everything will fade, and when the earth shakes, I will still be found in Jesus. I've linked the song above hoping you all get to watch & listen to its lyrics closely. I pray that this year gives us many opportunities, but that in those hundreds of opportunities, nothing.. NOTHING will ever be able to convince us that this is our home, because this is not where we belong.
Take this world, and give me Jesus!
Hello everyone! I hope you are all doing good. It's been such a busy week for me as we have shifted into another place. Another blog post for that! I was so tired and emotionally stressed that I really could not find the time to post about the best thing that's happened this week, which is the Hillsong Concert that took place in Dubai last April 28 and 29. When Hillsong coming to Dubai was announced at church last Christmas, I couldn't help but to be so excited about it. Actually, excitement would be an understatement. I was more of ecstatic and joyful at the same time knowing that one of the few bands I wanna see live was to perform in Dubai.
The past few days have been pretty awful for me. I had sleepless nights thinking of nothing but the problems I've been facing. Sometimes, even when I am not directly involved in one, I still find myself wallowing in self pity that I begin to feel miserable; and I suddenly hate myself for being worthless — living such a complicated and complex kind of life. No matter how I try to pacify myself, sometimes the need to "shed tears in sorrow" until I fall asleep is just inevitable. I feel like I did all that I could do: Pray and meditate, think positively etc, but sadly none has helped me. I end up playing the blaming game and blame all the surrounding sadness on me, because of me. I know some of you might think that I'm just plain depressed and merely over-acting. But all these feelings come from the need of something. The need of God, most probably.
So even if I'm struggling every single day, I still find myself relying on God's strength alone to continue the race set before me.
And just in time, God spoke to me through His word at church earlier. I could've been something else, even worse but God's grace changed all of it. I think, I just need some time to be relieved from the thick clouds of despair that keeps on blinding me from the truth that God loves me and He is better.
Here's the song our Pastor shared earlier.. It will explain God's grace in a clearer way. Enjoy!
Thanks for making it to this portion of the internet. I am truly grateful to each one of you for reading my entries! Most of what I've written here are unspoken words — words I wish I could've said or shared with anyone in person but has remained in my heart until I was able to write it in here.
My life's full of downs than ups, but through it all, I have seen and tasted the sweetness of God's grace and love. With that, I can tell you with a convinced heart that God is faithful, He is good and He never runs out of love for you and for me. Hope you enjoy your read(s)!
Rest if you must, but don't you quit!
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