Hello everyone! I hope you are all doing good. It's been such a busy week for me as we have shifted into another place. Another blog post for that! I was so tired and emotionally stressed that I really could not find the time to post about the best thing that's happened this week, which is the Hillsong Concert that took place in Dubai last April 28 and 29. When Hillsong coming to Dubai was announced at church last Christmas, I couldn't help but to be so excited about it. Actually, excitement would be an understatement. I was more of ecstatic and joyful at the same time knowing that one of the few bands I wanna see live was to perform in Dubai.
The past few days have been pretty awful for me. I had sleepless nights thinking of nothing but the problems I've been facing. Sometimes, even when I am not directly involved in one, I still find myself wallowing in self pity that I begin to feel miserable; and I suddenly hate myself for being worthless — living such a complicated and complex kind of life. No matter how I try to pacify myself, sometimes the need to "shed tears in sorrow" until I fall asleep is just inevitable. I feel like I did all that I could do: Pray and meditate, think positively etc, but sadly none has helped me. I end up playing the blaming game and blame all the surrounding sadness on me, because of me. I know some of you might think that I'm just plain depressed and merely over-acting. But all these feelings come from the need of something. The need of God, most probably.
So even if I'm struggling every single day, I still find myself relying on God's strength alone to continue the race set before me.
And just in time, God spoke to me through His word at church earlier. I could've been something else, even worse but God's grace changed all of it. I think, I just need some time to be relieved from the thick clouds of despair that keeps on blinding me from the truth that God loves me and He is better.
Here's the song our Pastor shared earlier.. It will explain God's grace in a clearer way. Enjoy!
Chainsmokers' new song entitled "All We Know" has been stuck on my mind lately. Here's the video so you can listen to it.
Love is the reason we see smiles, golden voices, harmonious dances
To the thumping music, taking life's one chance.
Love is the reason we joyfully wake up
No matter what life hopelessly throws at us.
Love is the reason we breathtakingly hold on and
Desperately try to be strong.
Love is the reason we break wars, lovingly feed the hungry;
cease the fire.
Love is the reason we sometimes give up,
Our minds fixed and arbitrary decisions made.
Love is the reason some sadly let go
Of dreams that were once so vivid and utterly strong.
And love is the reason some choose to put a stop
To find that peace they know is long far gone.
As some of you may know, I've been a part of a fantastic three-day summer camp called KidsGames. I'm working on an entire post dedicated to KidsGames to let you know what happened there and what it's all about. ( It's on its way – I'm just running out of words! ) So for now, to make it up to you, here are the songs we all crazily DANCED to that made KidsGames a much more lively event and an enjoyable one – not just for the kids, but for the adults as well!
I'm just an ordinary girl who loves to write
But a mist
Life is but a handful of rambutan // Show me who You are
When plans get cancelled
Heaven in Focus
The Sunday Currently | 12
Falling Into You
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