[Note: I had a problem with my server so I wasn't able to post this on January 2, 2019 itself.]
It's a beautiful morning, birds are cooing just outside the window. I'm in the living room as I type this, everyone else's in their rooms while some have gone for work. What a peaceful way to start off the 2nd day of 2019. It's the new year and I couldn't think of a better resolution than to eliminate the unnecessary load I carried with me in 2018 and hopefully never bring them back with me this 2019. Simply put, I've got habits I wish to make and break this year, learning, un-learning and re-learning.
I hope you find the following list relatable and helpful as well!
Before getting into my story for today, I just want to greet every single one of you a joyous Christmas ahead!
This year's Christmas is surely something special for my family because 1, a lot of the burdens we've been carrying for the past 8 years have been stripped off our shoulders and we're just truly happy this time around & 2, the Christmas feels -- food, family and gifts! Being the imperfect human that I am, I'd honestly say that I'm one of the many who think Christmas is a time to get myself new stuff, preparing and planning ahead of time. I know I know, I've also been busy thinking about our family gatherings to-be and the food to prepare; considering that my mom has some job to do and her hands are full [making me somewhat an important part of the 'preparation' crew]. However, these past few weeks at church we have also been learning about how simple Christmas really is and how much less-stressful it would be for us if we instead focused on Jesus than ourselves and our to-do lists.
Life has been pretty good and busy lately — good because God answers prayers, and busy because we also have to work hard in both the physical (going out and about) and spiritual (prayer) sense. These past 2 months have been a combination of nervousness and sighs of relief for us, and to say that we're happy with the progress we've made so far would only be an understatement. In actuality, we are absolutely swept away by God's love for us and moreover are we in awe of how things are slowly working out on our part.
In this season of prayers getting answered it is incredibly easy to get swayed by the idea that it is because of our faithfulness and years of prayer that caused God to hear us out, or maybe it's because we serve Him and go to small group and read the Bible. I used to think that way when I was younger, that my dealings with God was the same when my dad would promise me a new “item” if I did my best at school. As I grew in my relationship with the LORD, however, I realized that God does things quite differently.
Last Wednesday, we had 2:42 Bible study group and looked at the first portion of Mark 8 where Jesus fed a large crowd again. This time, it was a crowd of 4,000 people. We all know what happened thereafter isn't it? Jesus asked the disciples for whatever food was available and then He blessed and multiplied it. Our group also discussed how the disciples’ disbelief and doubts sometimes resemble the many of us — that even though we have already seen God's goodness in the past, we somehow still manage to forget to look at that same goodness when a new challenging season strikes us. Another point to consider is that God still provided though faithlessness and disbelief were both present in the air.
This led me to truly wanting to write something on this topic especially for all who still feel like they have to do something “grandeur” for God to come to their rescue. That being said, I’ll be looking back at the first portion of Mark 8 to aid me in this.
I will never get this post done, unless I start writing it.
I have spent the past 2 months or so badly wanting to come up with another blog entry, but I felt like my words are just as lifeless as I was already becoming. I have already put up polls more than a month ago on my Instagram Stories to hopefully aid me in a post I wanted to write which was about ministry: what it is, what it is not and touch on its importance in our Christian growth. To be honest, I started writing it, but I could never end it. I could never come up with words to add at least a second paragraph. It's difficult, so difficult when there's emptiness but I still want to pour into others. Slowly, I am losing the glow, the excitement and the fun in blogging-- only to realize that what I perhaps needed was a rest from the ordinary so I can draw nearer to the Extraordinary.
It seems like, in human nature, one of the hardest things we've ever had to deal with is change. Every time we are taken away from our comfort, our natural instinct is to desperately hold on to that thing we feel completes us, our entire being. All of these to say that seasons do change. In one way or another, going through periods of uncertainty, emptiness and brokenness only leads us to a better understanding of what remains certain and unchanging through it all.
Humanly speaking, I cannot think of a foolproof way to deal with the changing seasons in life because of the inevitable pain, anxiety and fear that sometimes come along with it, but I looked up these verses in the Bible that fortunately helped me come up with this post. It has encouraged me, I hope it does for you too.
Thanks for making it to this portion of the internet. I am truly grateful to each one of you for reading my entries! Most of what I've written here are unspoken words — words I wish I could've said or shared with anyone in person but has remained in my heart until I was able to write it in here.
My life's full of downs than ups, but through it all, I have seen and tasted the sweetness of God's grace and love. With that, I can tell you with a convinced heart that God is faithful, He is good and He never runs out of love for you and for me. Hope you enjoy your read(s)!
Rest if you must, but don't you quit!
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