[Note: I had a problem with my server so I wasn't able to post this on January 2, 2019 itself.]
It's a beautiful morning, birds are cooing just outside the window. I'm in the living room as I type this, everyone else's in their rooms while some have gone for work. What a peaceful way to start off the 2nd day of 2019. It's the new year and I couldn't think of a better resolution than to eliminate the unnecessary load I carried with me in 2018 and hopefully never bring them back with me this 2019. Simply put, I've got habits I wish to make and break this year, learning, un-learning and re-learning.
I hope you find the following list relatable and helpful as well!
We are finally in the last day of 2018! How was your year? Mine could be described as a roller coaster ride, really! The first quarter didn't start out as I had expected it to be. There were more tears of pain than tears of joy. The 2nd quarter was more like a continuation of the 1st quarter. 3rd quarter I was quite depressed and ready to give up. There was even a time when I desperately cried out to God to not wake me up anymore. Living life became too difficult that I held on to my anxiety more than I held on to God. 4th quarter was an absolute plot twist; everyday I just kept seeing the big picture of God's plans for my life. God replaced all that was lost in the first 3 quarters of the year and came up with good surprises in just the 3 months remaining of 2018. How amazing, right?
If you've been following me, you'll definitely remember reading my posts about answered prayers on Instagram. God's so good! All the years of waiting has finally come to an end this year and I couldn't be more thankful. I know 2019 will be challenging. My studies and a new job are just around the corner, I'm excited for what 2019 has in store for me. I don't want to jinx or spill anything right now, but I'll keep you updated with all the new things I'll be doing in 2019. I will surely be "adulting" this new year.
"Do not let anything stop you from being happy." This is a quote from Bambam of Got7. [Yes, I also got into Kpop this year! Another special post for that!] I totally love this quote because I feel like for the most part of 2018, I have been lonely and tired and frustrated that I wasn't able to focus on the things I loved doing. On the things that make me truly happy. This 2019, I just want to get rid of all that is toxic-- gossip, self-doubt, and self-righteous people, and embrace the things & people that make living life easier.
I hope 2019 serves us all well, I am more than ready to jump in the new year knowing full well that I am not in control of the outcomes, God is. What I am sure of, however, is that God always has better things and a brighter future prepared for us. What I may not have believed of Him in those first 3 quarters of 2018, I am fully convinced of today.
Happy New Year, everyone!
Don't let anything stop you from being happy!!
Before getting into my story for today, I just want to greet every single one of you a joyous Christmas ahead!
This year's Christmas is surely something special for my family because 1, a lot of the burdens we've been carrying for the past 8 years have been stripped off our shoulders and we're just truly happy this time around & 2, the Christmas feels -- food, family and gifts! Being the imperfect human that I am, I'd honestly say that I'm one of the many who think Christmas is a time to get myself new stuff, preparing and planning ahead of time. I know I know, I've also been busy thinking about our family gatherings to-be and the food to prepare; considering that my mom has some job to do and her hands are full [making me somewhat an important part of the 'preparation' crew]. However, these past few weeks at church we have also been learning about how simple Christmas really is and how much less-stressful it would be for us if we instead focused on Jesus than ourselves and our to-do lists.
It has been a long and winding road, hello to the 22nd version of myself! As cliché as it may sound, I thank God for all the enriching life lessons He's taught me all this time. I may not be exactly where I thought I would be at 22, but I still remain grateful for everything HE has enabled me to do. God is indeed so so good. Words will never suffice for all the love He has shown me and my family.
If you have been constantly reading my entries, you'll somehow get a clue of what I have been through in life. The good, the happy, the ugly and sad. My journey comes jam-packed with lessons I wouldn't have learned if I hadn't gone through some of the most hardest challenges. So here's a (long) list of lessons I learned at 22.
Hope you enjoy the read!
Life has been pretty good and busy lately — good because God answers prayers, and busy because we also have to work hard in both the physical (going out and about) and spiritual (prayer) sense. These past 2 months have been a combination of nervousness and sighs of relief for us, and to say that we're happy with the progress we've made so far would only be an understatement. In actuality, we are absolutely swept away by God's love for us and moreover are we in awe of how things are slowly working out on our part.
In this season of prayers getting answered it is incredibly easy to get swayed by the idea that it is because of our faithfulness and years of prayer that caused God to hear us out, or maybe it's because we serve Him and go to small group and read the Bible. I used to think that way when I was younger, that my dealings with God was the same when my dad would promise me a new “item” if I did my best at school. As I grew in my relationship with the LORD, however, I realized that God does things quite differently.
Last Wednesday, we had 2:42 Bible study group and looked at the first portion of Mark 8 where Jesus fed a large crowd again. This time, it was a crowd of 4,000 people. We all know what happened thereafter isn't it? Jesus asked the disciples for whatever food was available and then He blessed and multiplied it. Our group also discussed how the disciples’ disbelief and doubts sometimes resemble the many of us — that even though we have already seen God's goodness in the past, we somehow still manage to forget to look at that same goodness when a new challenging season strikes us. Another point to consider is that God still provided though faithlessness and disbelief were both present in the air.
This led me to truly wanting to write something on this topic especially for all who still feel like they have to do something “grandeur” for God to come to their rescue. That being said, I’ll be looking back at the first portion of Mark 8 to aid me in this.
Thanks for making it to this portion of the internet. I am truly grateful to each one of you for reading my entries! Most of what I've written here are unspoken words — words I wish I could've said or shared with anyone in person but has remained in my heart until I was able to write it in here.
My life's full of downs than ups, but through it all, I have seen and tasted the sweetness of God's grace and love. With that, I can tell you with a convinced heart that God is faithful, He is good and He never runs out of love for you and for me. Hope you enjoy your read(s)!
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