When we are asked about love, we often have something splendid and pleasant that comes to mind. The truth is, most of us actually think the same. We often perceive love to be an extraordinary, un-rivalled feeling that just feels majestic and simply – wonderful. What we don't know is that love comes in various aspects of life. In fact, not all love involves a sense of satisfaction, contentment or delight. God the Father being our example, we can know and clearly comprehend the measures of His immense love for us. We can also see that His love is also portrayed in another view – a view which we may consider as both harsh and meaningless. Something we may often ignore or disregard for it being unreasonable.
When the world says yes, don’t.
As human beings, we tend to carry the principle of both free will and self- sustaining choices. I believe, rather that life offers a lot of choices that we could, in one way or another – make. Christians, more so often question the fact that we were given the free will to decide about issues on our own. Just like when Eve – after taking the apple from the serpent did, we too, try to take a little sip of freedom and independence. Whether we like it or not, we enjoy freedom – we enjoy making decisions on our own. We just couldn’t let go of the fact that independence will make our lives a whole lot enjoyable and desirable at the same time.
More than a month ago, I accidentally broke my glasses. My fragile, rimless, eyeglasses broke into half. At those times, it was pretty horrible for me as we were shifting in our new house. Imagine seeing things zoomed in and 100% blurry at all times. Yes. My experience was precisely an epitome of near-blindness. It was the time when I obviously needed my specs very much for I had to see every detail. From cleaning up the room, making my bed, putting clothes back to closets, vacuuming – I knew I just needed my glasses so much that I just forced myself not to shed a tear. It was so difficult that I couldn’t make myself of use. Whenever my parents would ask for help, like sweeping the floor, I’d literally say: “I can’t see well”.
Fast forward to approx. 3 weeks ago… When we finally got to put everything into place, my parents decided to get me some new glasses. Before, we’d really go to known optical shops to get new eye-wears. Sadly, after a lot of years, things changed. We opted out for a cheaper way. TCHIBO! (And to Rolla for cheaper lenses) While choosing which frame to pick, I was so up for the over-sized black glasses that my eyes laid on. Having seen almost everyone wearing the same, I thought I wanted to try wearing those too. Well, I thought it did suit my face. Although my mom kept on persuading me to choose the rimless one instead, I was stubborn and confident that I would rock over-sized glasses!
The day after, I tried to use my new one which I was able to collect from the shop the day after I bought the frame. By the way, I still got to use my old one – super glue and some force to stick things together. As for my new one, at first, I thought it was good. I kept on asking my sisters if I looked weird. They somehow gave me a half- hearted answer which made me literally depressed that I wanted to smash ‘em right now right then. I tried convincing myself that I did look okay. So often, I’d asked my mom how’d I look and her answer would be: “You look like a nerd”. Jackpot! To cover up for the regret of not following my mom’s advice, I did coat my old glasses with glue over and over again to get rid of the negativity – trying to make myself feel better.
With a grade of – 4.00, the thicker lenses made the frame look weirder and weirder as I wore it. I had tried my best to just accept the fact that I had to stick to it, but I finally confessed to my parents how uncomfortable I felt wearing my week-old glasses. My mom and dad, after lecturing me, told me that I can get a new one. (Still didn’t get it now *smirks*) They told me that I should be sure of the choices I make and always heed to their advices because the time will come when they will give me more – especially about my future relationships.
The lesson here is that “freedom” is not a dreadful thing. Actually, it is an advantage when we put it in better use too. The choices we create can affect us and our lives entirely. Therefore, it is never too late to change our actions and choose to obey than to conform to the world. Some people may look good with over-sized glasses, but the truth is: it doesn’t really look nice on everyone. It is just the desire to look good, to look cool and chick that everyone would necessarily want to have one. In our lives as Christians, we sometimes forget that we are not of this world. We may be in it, but we are not of it. We are made in God’s image – to shine, to influence not to be influenced, to make and not to be broken, to live and not to die. So before having to live our lives with regrets, it’s better to be careful about the choices we make –being sure that we know what we’re doing and where it will take us.
Finally, the saying: “Mother knows best” yes, it is truly applicable until today.
I live an ordinary life; striving and making it work in the giant sandpit aka Dubai. My life isn't perfect (I wish it was!) But I guess there's something about the imperfection in my journey that makes it worth the write and share. I believe that we don't have to have everything figured out because if we do, a lifetime won't be enough.
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