I've experienced a lot of difficult times in my life where both my strength physically, mentally and emotionally have been tested altogether. Although I would like to share with you a common stressful financial situation we've had as a family, I pretty much think that it wouldn't be that relatable to everyone. So, being the 'adult' that I am, here's what I think is one of the difficult time in my life.
When I turned 20 (I still find that yikes), I had trouble accepting that fact for a while because I couldn't find myself a suitable place to fit into. I'm so much mature to join the youth group and too young either to join the young adults group. I found myself hanging in there waiting for what exactly God wanted me to do.
It had been a long time since I decided to 'go-it-alone' and found comfort only in my precious comfort zone. That was a difficult time in my life because deep inside, I also wanted to talk to people. Unfortunately, I found myself shutting them out and walking away when someone was trying to start a conversation! I may not be that open as to why and how I got myself into this, but I was afraid of two important things: One is the level of vulnerability I'm getting myself into, and two, the acceptance I always wished I could get.
Moving on few months later, someone from the kid's ministry at church asked if I would be okay teaching children. I'd helped the ministry every Friday by serving in the set-up team and welcome desk, but I never taught children! That was something I had to prayerfully consider. I couldn't teach kids when I wasn't even that comfortable with myself being treated like an adult! Even then, my mom who was already teaching told me she believed in what I could do. At 6 years old, I was the one teaching my sisters how to read & write. At 13 years old (when we had to stop regular schooling for some time), I was the one giving them real-life school projects and homework to work on! I loved teaching!
The journey began last May. I started teaching 15 kids. ( There will be more after summer!) They are all adorable young human beings to work with. Just like how my Friday-school teachers molded me into the Christian woman I am today, I would also want to invest in something life-long. God is good and answered my prayer. He had put me into a place where I could work on my confidence as an adult + He made that possible in a ministry I love so much.
Only God, in all His might and power can make the ugly beautiful, the incomplete complete and the mess into a message. When we learn to rely on Him to change the difficult time in our lives into something else, rest assured that He would come by with a plot twist that would save the character in the story — you and me.
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