BECAUSE OF THE LORD'S GREAT LOVE WE ARE NOT CONSUMED, FOR HIS COMPASSIONS NEVER FAIL. THEY ARE NEW EVERY MORNING; GREAT IS YOUR FAITHFULNESS.
Last night, at exactly 00:00, I was about to publish a post similar to this, but Weebly on my phone has unfortunately stopped because of some glitches. Anyway, last night was quite different. I didn't feel like I was ever going to be okay. I was depressed, I admit. I wanted life to just get better, but it just isn't happening the way I wanted things to be. I felt so bored that I kept scrolling on my Instagram feed over and over again which made me even memorize all of the captions already. I then checked my 'explore' tab, and out of the blue, there was just something that touched my heart to its core.
I bumped into the page of Jay Lucas who has undoubtedly such talent in photography, but aside from that, the part of his feed that I instantly loved the most were his posts about his daughter, Caitie and her recent death. The photos show just how much he and his wife loved their daughter so much. Honestly, my tears just had to drop while browsing through their photos! Caitie was down with an immune disorder that have affected their whole family -- even their church friends. Above all the pain and grief that are portrayed through their pictures and its captions, it is undeniable that their faith and trust in God still stood out.
I mean, how could so much of intense pain still be turned into praise? How could death ever be a reason to still move on with life? And how could a little girl's battle for life still bring inspiration to many? The thought of these things just made me realize how grateful I must be.
Life, for me, has always been a mixture of fun and sorrow -- mostly sorrow. If I were to grab a line from Anne of Green Gables, I'd say that "I'm in the depths of despair". Although I believe that God is in control, sometimes I can't just believe it anymore because of the circumstances I face in life. But now, I can only be thankful that even if my faith went on wavering, God reminds me, even through pictures that He is in control and will always be. His mercies are new every morning and He never fails.
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