Hi everyone! I would like to greet you all a Happy Halloween — well to those celebrating it. To be honest, I grew up really not celebrating this occasion as I was brought up that way. But since pumpkins are really popular nowadays, I've decided to share with you a squash meal to make up for it. My mom loves cooking this meal because of the health benefits we get from it. Also, I'm really fascinated on how food blogging works and would certainly love to explore further!
Let's get our Jack-o-Lanterns ready and start the slicing!
Chainsmokers' new song entitled "All We Know" has been stuck on my mind lately. Here's the video so you can listen to it.
Hi everyone! This is a post going to be about my birthday last Monday; specifically the food on the table that day. It's been years that I was dreading the day I'd be 20. If you know me personally, or if you're someone closest to me, then you'd understand why. I really don't understand why I automatically felt that way but my 20th didn't turn out that bad after all. The night before my birthday, we ate chocolate ice cream and watched the movie Me Before You. That film was incredible and at the same time, I also have a little of a love-hate relationship with the author for making such a tragic plot. Uggghh. The tears I was supposedly going to shed so I'd be a little emotional for leaving my teenage years behind, was all used up because of the movie. So when the clock ticked 12 at midnight, I was crying too much for Will choosing to die leaving Clarke alone. Forgive me for being such a spoiler but you're surely going to cry if you haven't watched the film yet.
Anyway, here's how my day went: We didn't have car so we didn't go out or roamed somewhere else aside from our house. We stayed in and my mom just cooked some yummy Flipino food to make up for it. You know, I'm not the one who'd necessarily want grand celebrations or something expensive. What makes my birthday a better one is when people remember it that makes my day a lot more special. I've had loads of greeting on Facebook and on Twitter too. I was also extremely happy that day as I hosted #beechat on Twitter. There were lots who greeted me over there. Thanks to Charlene!
Also, I've been really eating so much and decided that this post would be a shout-out to the food we gobbled up. Here are some of the photos. I tried to be as good as a food blogger but obviously I'm not good enough, forgive me!
Hello! The photo above was the flowers I got from a kid's mom in the last summer camp I've joined. Cool, right? There were problems that came up the past week that my family's really worried about things and how to solve them. We haven't attended church last Friday as we had no car so we just watched the service via live streaming. It was okay but it's still different to be at the actual place itself.
Anyway, here's my Sunday Currently entry for today..
Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte. It's the classic book that we're studying on now and I'm glad we came across it. Also, I'm done reading The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. I really fell in love with the story
The Sunday Currently Volume 5
to Sunday Pinasaya as my sisters are watching it while I'm writing this up
house clothes that are really comfy
this time I get to write this post and the new theme I chose for my blog. I got really afraid at first because it didn't seem to be responsive on phones but thankfully, I got to ask Weebly for help and they did!
a really happy life, free of stress and pressure
a good movie to watch!
a bit anxious as it's my birthday tomorrow. I don't know what to feel or am I just over-reacting and all. I just hope that there will be answers to my prayers asap
That's it! Hope you like it :) It's a bit boring but I love writing for this..
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Hello! The photo above was taken last January 2015 at the Miracle Garden, as we celebrated New Year with our family / relatives. Anyway, today has been pretty hectic for me. After home study, we went straight to Sharjah Public Diary to borrow some books and taught piano/guitar lessons to our friends also residing in Sharjah. I'm totally drained because I haven't had enough sleep last night for some unknown reasons. Nevertheless, I'm genuinely thankful that I got to borrow "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho from the library. I have always been wanting to read the book and so even if my eyes are bulging out because of sleepiness, here I am, done with a few pages; still managing to write this blog and read even more.
Here's my Sunday Currently entry to keep you updated..
The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte and Emma by Jane Austen.
The first book is actually really easy to understand while I must say that the following two books are a bit of a challenge as they're all Classic novels. It certainly needs more effort to be able to decipher every word, but as I go on everyday, I become more interested in the plot and the superb writing as well.
A guest post about volunteering; Sunday Currently volume 04
to the noise that our AC is creating
shorts and a white t-shirt
the time we spent at the library earlier! Nothing beats the silence and the calm atmosphere while being surrounded with books.
a good night's sleep; I would absolutely want to get some uninterrupted slumber.
God's given wisdom to decide whether we (my family) keep fighting this battle or we just let it go and move on.
accomplished for being able to write this without the feeling of laziness even if my eyes are literally about to fall. I just don't want to sleep in the late afternoon as I won't be able to sleep right away tonight. So instead, I tire myself even more and get the much needed deep sleep that I desire! hahaha
There you go, guys! Have a nice day slash night. . .
At church this morning, the topic shared by our pastor was about second chances. Our pastor cited different characters from the Bible; those who sinned big time yet were given second chances by God. This topic is one of my favorite knowing that I, a sinner myself, experienced the beauty of God's free gift which I never really deserved in the first place. Nowadays it's quite easy to let our anger or hatred towards someone get the better of us. To be honest, we're horrendously quick in making judgments. We're terrible at controlling ourselves, whether it be towards temptation, hatred, greed, gluttony — name it! What we have to be reminded of however, is the fact that we totally have no right to feel good about ourselves when we know that someone out there deserves or is waiting for a second chance from us.
During the talk, a short clip on Les Miserables was also shown. A scene where the bishop, being betrayed and cheated, still refused to have the man (Jean Valjean) jailed or punished because of obnoxiously stealing his precious silverware. The scene further explicates God's grace to us. That despite of being rejected, mocked and abused still came down and offered us what we ARE NOT, AT ALL, WORTHY OF. I just love how a simple musical show can illustrate what it means to be justified from sin, rescued from the pit of darkness and loved beyond what words can say. So today, the lesson I learned is. . . that however mad or hurt I felt/feel because of someone, I should always give them the benefit of the doubt. If God, in all His splendor chose to forgive us and make things right, who am I not to do the same?
Few months ago, I completed a Foundation in Psychology course. One of the topics addressed were depression and anxiety.
At that time, I was so curious to learn, curious to understand where depression even began. I learned about bio-psycho-social factors used to assess a patient and everything else. I found out that stress could cause depression and if not taken care of, can lead to suicide. My heart goes out to all those suffering from depression and anxiety. I'm just thankful however, that my anxiety hasn't gone any farther from losing appetite and sleepless nights. So for all those who are depressed and suffering from anxiety, here's what I want you to know.
Hey guys! I hope you all are doing good. It's Sunday — the busiest day of the week once again. ( In the UAE ) The photo above is a picture of Mamzar beach taken last 2014. I can't believe that in a few months' time, we'll soon be waking up to 2017. My life has been steady for some time; there are no up-highs or down-lows, however, it's safe to say that I'm not letting situations get the better of me. Not yet. Like I've written in my previous post here, I'm turning 20 in a few weeks' time and I'm trying to escape from the reality that I am going to be out of my teenage years, out there to see what life has for me. I've been quite busy teaching writing to homeschooling friends + sisters, and doing all my independent coursework, reviewing for my GED test while making sure that I don't miss out on posting here from time to time. Anyway, to cut the long story short, I'm okay for not being really okay. Here's my Sunday Currently Entry. . .
"Don't Waste Your Life" by John Piper. I have been searching for new books to read and I haven't realized that for the longest time, up on our bookshelves are some really good books in the, Christian category or not. This book has so far been so good. It encourages me as I read along its lines telling me that education is not the answer for everything. As long as I live this life for Jesus, nothing goes to or will go to waste. I have also been reading Wuthering Heights and Emma as part of the reading sessions we do.
Sunday Currently volume 3. I have also been writing some poems about feeling anxious and also, I've been working on a post about the essence of volunteering as a guest post in another blog. I will keep you posted!
to some of the songs sung during Passion Conference 2016. I figured out that attending a Passion conference would be so cool, so I'm putting it on my bucket list.
*sniff sniff* the leftover air particles of the burger I just ate awhile ago.
that life would just surprise me with good things as I turn 20. #ImStillYoung
a grey shirt and black jersey shorts. If I'm not mistaken, this are exactly the same clothes I wore when I wrote my second Sunday Currently entry.
the new course I have been working on. It's called Leaders of Learning under Harvard University, delivered by edX. It just gives me a whole lot of insight regarding the different methods of both learning and teaching. I've been quite interested in teaching lately and this course helps me a lot! Can't wait for the certificate!
to buy contact lenses; I've been wearing my eyeglasses for many years now and I'm deeply irritated by it. If only I could wear contacts to lessen my dark circles and evenly apply make up (as if I wear make up *smirks* ).
a good person to talk to; someone who would laugh with me and listen to my drama about all my insecurities and inferiority in life. If you're that person, come tweet me on Twitter and let's have a Twitter date.. #Shhhh
so ill and annoyed because of the allergy attacks I have been getting recently. I don't have any medical tests done yet, but thankfully, my mom's a nurse which technically means I can trust her about any health issues. Good thing I'm taking some anti-histamines that really help lessen the pain and occasional shortness of breath. However, our observation has led us to the thought that anything meat (chicken and beef) are the main causes of my allergy. But I love meat and beef, and burger (I just ate burger!), and steak, and nuggets, and hotdogs, and egg. Help me, God.
There we go, I hope you enjoy it!
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P.S. Happy Birthday to my youngest sister and frienemy, Angel. I hope you're eating, singing and dancing just fine. I love you. Insert *eyebrow wiggle*
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Hello guys, hello October! It's been a week after October started and ooooff, I can't help but be excited for the start of the winter season here in the UAE *widest grin* and also, I can't help but frown a little when I think of October as my birth month. Few more days and I'll be saying goodbye to teenage years. I honestly don't know how to react to this process in life which I call 'adulting'. The stage where I slowly have to get rid of all those childish thoughts, manners, and ways of doing certain things. The idea of growing older to me, is like a pain in the butt. Seriously though, I feel like my life has been a series of disappoints and failures that I didn't really get to enjoy as much as I would have wanted life to be.
When I turned 18, I surely was happy, but I was sad too. I was still groping on the changes that were taking place at that time, especially when we moved to a new church which to me, was like leaving old friends and family behind in the hope of finding a new 'home'. I met a few people thereafter, those from the Youth Group. Unfortunately, most of the people I got to be friends with or hoped to get acquainted with left Dubai to continue their studies in their respective hometowns. To say that I was devastated would surely be an understatement. I'd rather say, I was struck with disbelief that I left my home, to be well... friendless and alone. Though I got to meet a few people and that I'm happy with the people in my life right now, the sense that I'm getting older and soon enough, I wouldn't be with my sisters anymore, makes me shiver. My sisters have found friends within their age groups, attend youth services, and join the worship team. While I on the other hand, I'm here... waiting on what life throws at me and decide whether I react to it negatively or positively, until I turned 19. ( And I'm so lazy to talk about it here, forgive me)
If I want to, there's also a group for 20s and above; the young adult group. The problem with it is that I DON'T FEEL CONFIDENT ENOUGH to communicate with people who are professionals, travelers and have achieved so many things in life already. I would often brainstorm whether I join or not, which resulted in me working with kids all the time. The best thing about being with kids is that they like you, whether you're a businessman or just a simple man. In the church I go to, there's a vast majority of people who have achieved so many things in life at a young age. Call me ignorant, a pessimist or a selfish person..whatever. I'd say that half of my life I spent on my insecurities. I fed it that it grew bigger and bigger -- I'm almost convinced that I am good for nothing. This blog, this is my outlet. I may not show everyone what I truly feel on the inside but here, I get to be me for awhile. I get to be Hannah who's full of worthless rants, the Hannah who's always happy but hurting deep inside. Sigh. If I could only write the real score about what's happening in my life, I would. But I AM AFRAID OF BEING JUDGED , of being TURNED AWAY and of being MISUNDERSTOOD.
Now that I'm really turning 20, I don't know what to say. Should I be happy, should I be ready for the things to come, or should I just go with the flow every time? I wanna have that sense of achievement in my life that I could finally be proud to showcase myself when anyone would ask me. Often times, I smile when people ask how I am. Deep inside, I feel lost. Not in my relationship with people nor with God. Rather, I feel lost in my own thoughts, in my own self; trapped in my cynical view of the world and how people could be merely people. People who hurt and break the trust of others and people who would look at me and say: Wow, that's great! but inside, they look at me — doubtful of my capabilities and my credibility as a person.
The truth is, I'm not ready. I'm really NOT READY in regards with so many things. Quite a few of my friends have told me that maybe I should have a boyfriend, or have a love life, get married, have a family. I'm like: I'm just 20. Too fast? Should I hold a placard that states I'm 20 and need to get married? Of course not. I may be confused with everything, but I know that there is a right time for everything --even my love life. For now, I hope things get better, problems get at least lighter and my heart stronger. I am afraid, but I know that this is just a phase in my life that will come to pass. So when October hits the 24th, I hope I'd be able to greet it with a smile and be happy for awhile. Pray for me, wish me luck and who knows what love... I mean life could bring! Haha! Thank you and sorry for sticking around with me in this very long rant of mine.
Til the next rant,
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